26 Days

Less than a month. Can you believe it? I can't. This past weekend was my last weekend in Houston until after the honeymoon. I'm going home next weekend for my sister's and cousin's graduation, the next weekend are showers in Anacoco, then the next weekend is the one before my life changes and I will be going home to help mom. I find that I'm getting a little more emotional the closer I get. That could be related to a couple other factors as well, so it's hard to tell. But I'm starting to think about things like "this is the last time I do this before I'm married." I'm trying to think of all the things that need to be taken care of by the time the wedding gets here. It's really kind of overwhelming. We got things all set for our new apartment. I'm convinced I'm never going to want to move from it. Even though it's on the second floor, it's a stand-alone {with only the apartment underneath us connected} Out one window is the pool, out another is the courtyard. It has a nice open entrance outside so that I can have some potted plants. It has a big living room and two bedrooms! Yay! So we can use it as a guest room/craft room/computer room/ maybe a music room for Heath. It's gonna be so full we probably won't even be able to get in it! Haha. I'm going to try my absolute best to be good about keeping the place clean so Heath doesn't feel like he has to be the one who cleans. I keep promising him this but he just doesn't believe me. I have to prove him wrong! Last night we were sitting in my apartment. And I was like, "I wonder if after we are married if we will just sit here and look at each other and say, hmm...now what?" We are so use to go over to each other's apartments that when we will actually be living in the same one we won't know what to do with ourselves! Well I'm sure we will be able to think of a few things to do....but you know what I mean. Right?

It's going to be so different. We've been talking about budgets and financial stuff. I have to find a new job. It's been rough so far. I have a hard time getting into the right mindset to even try to find a job. Simply because I don't want to. But also because I don't know *what * I want to do. Well I know what I want to do but I can't do that right now. I don't even like talking about it because it seems too out of reach and people don't take me seriously. So for now I just have to find *something* but a *something* that is going to pay me enough to statisfy. We shall see....... It just sucks to have to be half jobless with all this wedding stuff and other stress right now. It's just not fair. The Lord is testing me right now and I feel like I am failing miserably. Heath is a good encouragement but I also feel a lot of pressure being put on me. I have faith that things are going to fall into place. Say a prayer for me if you think about it. I'm going to need it.

Of course I can't go without posting a picture!

A Few More Things....

I'm working on the invitations now. I haven't started addressing them yet (i can't wait to start that chore!) but I'm stamping and hole-punching and threading ribbons. I think they are turning out just as cute as I imagined them.

I got the stamps from FredFlare.com . Very shabby chic.

Also, the flower girl found her dress. We are going to put a dark pink sash instead of the ivory. She is very proud of it and she can't wait to wear it. She's very girly and so excited about being in the wedding. She is going to throw feathers and petals from a basket that is apparently shaped like a nest. I haven't seen it yet.

It's Getting Closer!

I just picked up Heath's wedding band a week or so ago. It's soooo pretty! I can't wait to see it on his finger!

The Sweetest Little Nest.....

And they are our wedding favors! The eggs are Cadbury candy coated chocolate eggs. They are so yummy. I had to test them to make sure they tasted okay.... :D They do, don't worry.

Eeeeeeee!

The dress is now in my possession! Kinda scarey! In fact, I'm taking it to my parents house next weekend. Just for my peace of mind!

A Brief Peek....

into my wedding idea notebook....

I loved the ostrich feathers from the start. My florist and future Mother in Law just got my feather holder in. I can't wait to see it!!!

I love these ranunculus. They are almost like roses, just more compact.

These lovely little cones made from sheet music hold the petals that people throw. Heath wanted to do this. :) I like how he actually gets involved sometimes. I try to make him stop feeling like this is all MY thing. I actually want him to have an opinion.

This is one of my hair style ideas.

I want to get (or make) a birdcage veil like this

and try some different hair styles with it.

Our wedding favors. The reception is going to have a bird theme. Not the doves but just birds. The centerpieces are going to be nests and birdcages. It will kinda carry on the theme of the feathers from the ceremony.

This is what my dress was going to look like.

But now it looks like this.

These are my dream shoes. But I have yet to find any like them. If you know of where I can get them, please let me know!

THE END.....for now!

Tomorrow.....

will make exactly 4 months until I am married to this man:

This is such a cheesy picture. But that is exactly how i feel about him.
Love is supposed to be cheesy right?
It is supposed be silly and serious, secular and spiritual,
simple and complicated, magical and disenchanting,
perfect and flawed, lovely and sometimes not so lovely.
It's feeling, yet numbing. It's confusing and makes so much sense.
It completely changes you and the way you look at things.
Love songs, love stories.... make you cry where you once
prided yourself on keeping dry eyes.
It's all wonderful. The good and the bad of it.
It's all part of Love. Part of loving that guy in the picture,
My best friend.
I love him.